Rags

Well things haven't been going that badly, except my computer was gone for 3 weeks and that sucked majorly... but i had alot more time to focus on my writting, and i ahve started an new short novel, so that'll keep me pretty much occupied for the next few weeks or maybe even months.... but yeah... recently i ahve been told i might have a disorder called Bi-Polar...it is a disorder in which you can go some days with a really great adn happy mood, nothing can get me down... then others i am depressed, lonely and basically in my normal mood... but i can truely go and check this out, my parents would never believe me....

Anyway... I have been reading and writing alot lately, and school has generally been a pain in the ass, i seriously cannot wait to get out of it... the day i leave i am going to be the happiest person EVER!
Meh well there my three cents for now! Hope you all are koola dn things are going ok!

Love Rags

It is a truth universally acknowledge that once one area of you're life begins to go ok, nother falls spectacuarly to pieces...
My depression has been extremely low yet, and things were going great, i was feeling happier and writting a new novel when all hell broke loose... my parents began to argue, and when i saw aruge i meen i.. full on shouting and wlaking out mayhem.. they were arugeing a few weeks ago, the suddenly my dad wlaked out on saturday... i saw him next day and he told me to not tell my sister (not that i would anyway) that they might be splitting up.. the truth is, i'm not really bothered if they do or not, but it's just what it's going to do to those around me, i'm not really bothered about it, but my family will change, not me but my mum and stuff... God at least i have my friends around me...

Weee Sam rang me! she has probably mkae Canada a third world country with the amount she spent on that phone call but it kicked ass XD
I ate pizza and we just had a really random conversation about stuff then... my little problem came up ¬_¬
She has made me swear to stop drinking as much as i do.. so thats like a small bottle a week... but hey shes my best friend how can i say no? I have no choice but to do as she says... claimign she is as worried as hell about me i couldn't help but feel guilty for making her worried... damn why did she have to go!?
*sigh* i will do as she says.. claimign when she comes back she's sorting me out XD i just really hope she is coming back... if she dont it'll all collapes... so form now on i will just write, draw, and keep to my one bottle a week...
I'll add more to this later on or tommorow...
I miss you Sam... :'(

Jen, Rain, Nowonmai....

Last night i had a terrible nightmare... it was so real.. i thought it was real, and i felt so scared and woke up in tears...
My best friend Sam came back to Cheltenham.. and what seemed to me at the time like a really sweet dream,a dn it did start off really happy... we were hugging and talking about how our lives were going, then suddenly she had to leave again.. she asked us some time later to come and stay with her, so me and my friends went up to Canada to visit.. we hung out and generally had an excellent time, and even asked us to come 'live' with her, (we were much older at the time)..
And one day we were stadning in this room just her and me... and we for no reaosn began arguing and we started to strangle each other... there was a large window with a massive flight of stair below them.. and we were struggling to push each-other to the floor.. instead we threw ourselves out the window.. we both tublled down the stair becoming seriously injured.. at the bottom we saw our friends running down the stairs to help us.. it was then i kinda became conscience of what i had done.. i was crying and fumbling witht he arm i could move to help Sam, she was bleeding... and used all ym strength no matter how difficult to get up and get her.. it picked her and and held her in my arms, hugging her and kept repeating 'I'm so sorry.. please forgive me...'
She lifted her head to me, and placed her hand on my bloody cheek.. and mouthed to me 'I forgive you.. sister'.. and then she died... and i began to cry.. i was crying so loud..
Then i woke up, and i was crying, my face was stained with tears.. and i was calling out Sams name...
God i miss her...

Hey to all.. some fo you know me.. some of you dont.. XD
I'm Rain, aka Regan, Nowonmai ect.
I am 14 years old, strange, depressed, and not everyones idea of a normal person... basically i am not a prissy, bubbly person at all.. for the following reasons:

1. I always fight with my mum, i feels he hates me, that way i feel very hated and unloved...

2. A month or so ago i lost a very dear friend of mine.. she movied to Canada and i barely ever get to speak to her anymore...

3. I get uncontrolably Mood.. one minuit i will be lauhging and cracking jokes.. next angry, violent and incredibly depressed....

4. I am Hostile.. appart form hugs form my friends, i hate being touched... and 9 times out of 10 i hate being in Human company...

5. I've always been an outcast.. never fit in.. al my life i've been in the background

So here is basically a little Biography for me:

Name: Jenny
Age: 14
Sex: Female
Location: England UK
Interests: Video Games, Anime, Internet, Movies, Drawing, Writting
Favouirte Movie: Exorcist, Resident evil, Fast and The Furious, Matrix, Girlfight
Favourite Actor/ Actress: Linda Blair

So that pretty much has got me to a 'T'.. i cant put into words my foreve cahnging moods XD

Rain
Interests: Video games, Anime,